Many times I have been reading about Jesus’ resurrection specially during Easter Sunday. Last Sunday service Pas. Daniel read out the same scripture. He talked about Mary Magdelene who went to the tomb early morning with other two women. She got an oil, an expensive oil to anoint Jesus’ body. But when they found the door of the tomb opened and inside Jesus’ body was no longer there, they all got shocked and amazed where the body has gone. They run to the disciple to tell what had happened. But we can see that Mary Magdelene returned to the tomb, wondering and weeping where is the body of Jesus. Who has taken it away? Where is Jesus? She was there just to see Jesus and nothing else. She was crying and crying.

And suddenly Jesus appeared to her, comforting her and telling her that He rose again from the dead and Why she was looking the living among the dead?

My heart felt with love and joy for my Lord Jesus, who suffered and died for me. Jesus, I am here like Mary Magdelene just longing to see you, your kindness, love and greatness everyday. I want to see you. I want to see Jesus.

Matthew 6:33 (King James Version)

“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”

As the song says ” I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back”, Yes, I too have decided to follow Jesus without turning back. But it isn’t really easy by my strength alone. The experience that I had last week teached me a good lesson. There was a time when I failed to put Christ NO 1 in my life. I sometimes feed my mind with unnecessary thoughts in anger, in fear, in doubts and so on. Oh!! Why? Not again. I questioned myself. I am again putting myself before Jesus. My heart’s desire , my wishes, my life is coming before Jesus again. Though I am saying Jesus you are my NO 1, then Why am I still lost in myself??

Here come the powerful word of God from my Pas. Daniel on Sunday morning service.  I am so happy. It wasn’t easy for me to get out of my own mindset but it was not difficult for God to bring me out of it. All I have to do was just to lean on him. After preaching about putting Jesus in No 1 in our life, Pas. Daniel invited us for altar call. There he laid his hand on my head as if he knows what’s going on in my mind. He prayed for me. Once again God filled my heart with His love inspite of all my mistakes. I got no words beside saying THANK YOU Lord and I am Sorry.

I am sorry for putting myself before you.

Thankyou Lord for your powerful love that flows in me giving a new strength to trust you, to lean on you, to love you, to put you NO.1 in my life.

Matthew 19:26

“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”